Technically I have one more day of the challenge, but tomorrow is Halloween, so I am going to be enjoying my family time rather than processing my thoughts and feelings surrounding this little experiment. I am glad that I went ahead and covered this uncomfortable and new (for me) territory. I now have at least 29 pictures of myself that are mostly reflections of who I am. Pictures I can show my children as they grow up, which may or may not be important to them, but I know I wish I had more pictures of my mom from her early mothering years.
I am a work in progress. This process hasn’t completely transformed me into a body love guru, but I’ve made definite improvements. I have lots of questions still. Do I still want to lose weight? Yes, most of the time I do. Is that because we live in a broken diet culture? I don’t know. I am not going to restrict myself, I am going to listen to my body. Listening can be hard, but the more I practice then the more practice I have. I am going to continue making strides to find value in my current body. I still want a magic wand to make things all better, whatever my fantasy is. I can still get discouraged. I am a little sad that this is coming to an end. So maybe it won’t end, maybe I will still make occasional body love posts. I honestly don’t know what the future of this blog looks like. I enjoy creating food. Can I create food, write about food, photograph food and test food without reverting to diet obsession? I suppose it is worth a try.
October 30: Today I love that I have been vulnerable and as authentic as possible this whole month regardless of what the scale says.
Frugal Self-Care today: Cooking good food that I had been longing for and enjoying it immensely with my family.